The First Step

I did it. How? I have no clue. Why? May be God wants me to carry on. I've been thinking all along that I'm not supposed to be here but now I get the feeling that may be, just may be, God wants me to realize that this thing is not impossible for me. And that He WILL help me to carry on with the rest of the journey. After all, I chose this profession so I could distract myself from my own pain by looking at others'. The way Norton does in Fight Club.