A year of anguish

This past year has been the worst of my life. I had to deal with things I didn't think I could. There were times I seriously thought about hurting myself. But when you've been through so much all your life, you inadvertently keep gathering strength. Every day of the past year was a struggle and I had to work very hard to get through. The thoughts and impulses I had to fight were tremendous. I took (and later stopped) pills that I was always so opposed too. I really did get a whole new outlook of a number of things in life.
All this time, I kept looking back at all the events in my life and reminded myself of how each one of them make me, me. All the people who meant something to me that I don't know anymore. I kept replaying the moments where I had choices that could have made it different for me. I'm not someone who regrets his decisions but I do tend to overthink. Regardless, I force myself to stop and remind myself, "This too, shall pass".
Nevertheless, not everything that happened this year was terrible. I did experience a Divine miracle, which is nice.